True to who you are

I stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
No, no, no, no

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
Just be true to who you are

(Who you are, who you are, who you are)

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold
The more I try, the less it's working
'Cause everything inside me screams: no, no, no, no, no, no, no
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
There's nothing wrong with who you are

Yes, no's, ego's
Fake shows like woah,
Just go and leave me alone
Real talk, real life, good luck, good night
With a smile...
That's my home, yeah
That's my home...

No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the start
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
Just be true to who you are

Yeah, Yeah....

"Who You Are"

Jessie J

So, I know it's been a while since I used my own words to describe everything that I've been feeling these last months. I know I should try to describe it myself, but I just can't, I wasn't made for words I'm not a word's person, i'm a scientific's person I belive that if I have only 5%  chances to get something right i'm not going to get it because what's 5% chance to 95%? Nothing... 

I'm a person who believes that her dreams shouldn't became true because they are called dreams for a reason they aren't supose to become real, that's not de definition of a dream. 

So because I was start to believe that things were start to going right, for the first time, and because they didn't, I fear to let me believe in something that has 5% chance to come out right. But here is the question this is my last chance, my last chance that my life come out as I planned since I was kid, since I felt the joy of that take care the health of someone, and the joy of cut out a heart or a brain, the joy.... "that's why we do this, for the joy" so as I was questioning if I don't believe now, when will I believe it? When I'd passed the oportunity of turn my dreams real?  No, is now, and if everything goes  wrong like always do, then I'll stop believe it then, but until then I do have to believe it I can't be trying to do something that I don't believe I can do...

So.... 

"Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing"